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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

i look at myself last night.
saw what i did that hurt someone.
it's like i'm back to 2006.
scenario so similar..
my reaction too.
It was a bad experience.
but i just had to repeat my mistakes again last night when those words came out of my mouth.

both my good friends.
both that i really don't want to hurt.
but i think i end up hurting everybody.

When i realised how selfless my friend is,
how and why he's so selfless.
it reminded me of myself in the past.
being the middle child in the family, i guess that makes me a lil more independent than my other siblings. emotionally-wise.
but what happened to me? why have i become who i am today?
I felt like such a hypocrite when i look back at what i say yest..
maybe i am.
Who am i to say others when i'm doing the same thing?

looking at them still loving and caring for each other, yet cos of certain things that are keeping them apart, is so painful.
I told Roy whatever's that happening between them, surprisingly, is affecting me somewhat too.
and i said i dint know why.
but Roy gave me the answer, he said cos both of them matters to me somehow.
that's true.

I need to learn.
To be a better friend.