always.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

finally one break between my exams.

im now thinking how i can study for my IT which will be like tmr!!

it's like im an IT noob and im going for an IT examinations with ppl like JAMES? the robotics champ in 1999 or something..well that's what his jacket showed. nvm..that was the bitchy side of me. i think being around roy too much brings the bitch out of you. which is no good no good. HAHA kidding.

yest night me and spoon had our lie-on-our-beds-and-talk-till-we-fall-aslp talk again.

it's been ages since we last did that.

it was nice.. like just talking about everything random.

and laughing at all the stuffs in the past.

i think it's true that ppl say once you start looking back to the past, it's when you're starting to grow up! LOL!

we both fell aslp around 3 plus and had a wake up call from roy to ask us go study.

and guess what? we both continued lying on our beds and nua-ed for an hour and talk rubbish again. okok not rubbish. yea before we decided ok we really need to study!

haha..another nice memory before i leave hall 5.

time is passing so fast that i cant even keep track of the things that i've done and things that have happened..

i just rmb leaving hall happily and looking forward to the weekends, and zoom! it's sunday night and it's time to go back to hall again.

wow.

but no doubt i really enjoyed myself in hall 5 and all the friends that i've made.. the happy bunch esp.

and having spoon as my roomie is probably the best thing for me in hall 5.

encouraging each other on, the good lucks for each other, the tears and happiness that filled our rooms throughout the past 8 months, the food replenishment every weekend, replenishing the air fresherner and deciding which is nicer-smelling, the swimming sessions, suppers and forget-to-bring keys incident etc etc..there's so much more.

definitely all these will be great memories of my uni life..

and for now, i need to continue with the "memories" of mugging in HSS.

all the best to me for my last 2 papers!! =)

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

surprise! (:

today started out a bad day.

FM paper was tough..

i couldnt finish.

den revision for accounting was not productive.

and made me even more stressed out.

but...

then when i was back in my room.

i heard a knock on the door.

i opened..no one. so i closed again.

den knock knock!

and edna popped out!! hahahaha I WAS SO HAPPY! AND I SCREAMED AND HUGGED HER!!

it was like the best thing that happened which totally made my day a totally better one.

it's amazing how God puts such amazing people in your life to lift you up when you're down.

Thanks alot girl!

with lots and lots of love.

p.s.: you know i love you too. dont be jealous. (:

Saturday, April 24, 2010

what's wrong with me?

ugh.

i want my holiday now!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

was looking through my old entries and saw this..

which really enlightens me. again. (:

quoted from edna..

"We're who we are when we're together. Isn't that what love is about? People say 'Love is Blind'. Well, it's not. Love is to fully accept the other when your eyes are open to both their positive and negative sides; to accept who the other is as a person."

"A relationship is based on determination (to make it last), effort (to keep things together even when things go wrong), tears (that we shed along the way), belief (that we can make it happen), time (we try to squeeze out to make time for each other), consideration (of the other's position, giving way for each other), friendship (that is timeless), and love (that grows even more bountiful over time)..."

So true.

"If I could use a metaphor for this love, it would be that of a tree. It starts from something small, but with the appropriate cultivation, perserverance, care, love, and of course help from God, it will grow larger and larger, higher and higher, deeper and deeper by the day till one day, even when a typhoon occurs, the tree will not be uprooted because it's so firmly stuck unto the ground it would not even budge."

So sweet isn't it?

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

what i want now?

is to see you happy.

hear your infectious laughter filling up the room.

being so ever high.

and just be yourself.

jiayou girl. hugs.

dont forget our fav song!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

i look at myself last night.

saw what i did that hurt someone.

it's like i'm back to 2006.

scenario so similar..

my reaction too.

It was a bad experience.

but i just had to repeat my mistakes again last night when those words came out of my mouth.

both my good friends.

both that i really don't want to hurt.

but i think i end up hurting everybody.

When i realised how selfless my friend is,

how and why he's so selfless.

it reminded me of myself in the past.

being the middle child in the family, i guess that makes me a lil more independent than my other siblings. emotionally-wise.

but what happened to me? why have i become who i am today?

I felt like such a hypocrite when i look back at what i say yest..

maybe i am.

Who am i to say others when i'm doing the same thing?

looking at them still loving and caring for each other, yet cos of certain things that are keeping them apart, is so painful.

I told Roy whatever's that happening between them, surprisingly, is affecting me somewhat too.

and i said i dint know why.

but Roy gave me the answer, he said cos both of them matters to me somehow.

that's true.

I need to learn.

To be a better friend.

stuck to this song.

Try-Asher Book

If I walk would you run

If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

Thursday, April 15, 2010

looking back made me see God's grace once again.

He guided me once and once again..

these little things that we always overlook..

are part of the plan that He has paved for us.

At that moment, we may see them as problems.

But now that i look back, those "problems" were actually guidance.

It's amazing.

I see so much God's work in everyday life..but yet i always overlook them.

Edna posted this on fb which i think it's so true: because God provides. all ways, always.

She was just fretting about the driving expenses and doesnt wanna burden his Dad with all these. and today, she was blessed with 200 bucks from somewhere.

It's like all these small things that God provides us with and lift us from our burdens.

We should learn to open up ourselves and really let God take control of our lives.

He is our creator, our master.

It's only then when you really can see God's work in your life.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

exams are in less than 2 weeks and i barely touched my books.
this sem has been a crazy one with endless projects presentations and quizzes.
much worse than last sem.
althought i enjoyed MJ and hall dance alot, all the practices dint make my management of time any easier.
i hope for this 12 more days to exams, i will be disciplined and follow my study plan.
i dont want to have another sem to regret.

this week hasnt been that good either.
mon 2 quizzes
tue 1 presentation
wed 1 presentation and 1 report submission.
im really super lack of slp now..and i think cos of that and plus the crazy weather these days, im starting to have headache quite often. i cant wait for 30th april to come.
i need a break. my machine cant last much longer!

Saturday, April 10, 2010

sometimes i just need somebody to lean on..
im not as strong as i may seem to be.
a rubberband overstretched will snap.
now's not a good time.

Thursday, April 08, 2010

THINGS TO DO AFTER EXAMS!

1. DANCE!
2. travel round sg to eat all the best food. (:
3. a photography day with edna <3
4. spend more time with family. (:
5. try out seasports
6. take up a 3rd language
7. no worries shopping spree!
8. durian feast
9. plan itinery for HK trip coming July! WHEE~
10. find a job to finance the trip! haha!

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

For my good friend and roomie,
this is both our favourite song. And i really feel for the lyrics. Jiayou in whatever you're going on right now. no matter what, you'll still have me to lean on! (:

LEAN ON ME by GLEE CAST

Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me!
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Till I'm gonna need Somebody to lean on

Please! (please)
Swallow your pride (pride)
If I have things
You need to borrow
(For) for no one can fill
Those of your needs
That you wont let show

So just call (call) on me brother (hey)
When you need a hand (When you need a hand)
We all need (need) somebody to lean on!
(I just might have a problem)
I just might have a problem that you'll understand
We all need somebody to lean on!

If (If)There is a load! (there is a load)
You have to bare (you have to bare)
That you can't carry
I'm (I'm higher) right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

Call me (I'm calling)
Call me (when you need a friend)
Call me (call me)
Call me (call me) (when you need a friend)
Call me (when you need a friend)
Call me (if you need a friend)
Call me (any time of day)
Call me

It won't be long till I'm Gonna need somebody to lean on, lean on, lean on
Lean on lean on lean on me when you need a friend
Lean on lean on lean on me lean on me
Lean on lean on lean on me
I'm gonna need (somebody) somebody to lean on
I'm gonna need somebody to lean on (somebody to lean on)
Yeah

Thursday, April 01, 2010

I asked the Lord to bless you as I prayed for you today.
To guide you and protect you as you go along your way.
His love is always with you, His promises are true,
And when we give Him our cares you know He will see us through.
So when the road you're traveling on seems difficult at best,
Just remember I'm here praying, And God will do the rest.

It's so true.
This made me realised again the power of prayer and God's love and guidance. (: